Thursday, March 28, 2013

Dysfunctional At Best.



 There are days when the words crash over me in waves.  I live for those days:  there's nothing better than reading over something I wrote in a flurry of mad inspiration.  I often edit those passages without remembering writing a damn thing.  It's an alien voice ringing in my ears, and I get caught up in my own worlds.

 I spend entirely too much time creating something from nothing.  Every story, every post, everything--it's a labor I wouldn't wish on anyone.  I obsess over statistics, I scroll through email accounts like a rolodex, and absorb conversations like a sponge.  

 My wife puts up with me for the most part.  She watches over my shoulder most of the time; a little voice of reason when I'm banging my face against the desk because a sentence won't come together.  It's amazing how agonizing a single word can become when it stands between me and the end of a project.

 Tonight I put together the e-book cover for one of my new stories, 'Something Wicked', and after everything was said and done, my little angel of salvation whispered over my shoulder,"I've never liked red letters..."

 I screamed internally, I felt my blood heat to a boiling point.  I wanted to say I didn't make it for her, but I didn't, because I did...  That's when I started over in a new color.  She hates doing that to me, almost as much as I hate having it done.  The new color looks great, and I'll be able to share it alongside a tease of the new work here in a few days, but not just yet.  I want to savor the victory quietly first.

 I love her dearly for pointing out my artistic flaws, but damn...I still have two more covers to put together and I have the distinct impression it's going to hurt.


  




6 comments:

  1. Some want it to happen,
    Some wish it would happen,
    Others make it happen. Go you.

    Pain is temporary and I'm excited to read your new stuff.

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    1. Can't I just skip to the happy place at the end where everything's wine and roses?

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  2. Oh, can I relate! I, too, am in the process of making covers for Smashwords. I've been on the same two for several months. Every time I think it's right, I go through Mark's guidelines again and crash. I should purchase covers, but I'm stubborn. I can't wait to see your covers and read your books!

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    1. While I'm no expert, if there's anything I can do to help, send me an email and I'll do anything I can. And thanks for the support!

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  3. It's nice when a significant other gives an honest opinion, and the toil will be worth it when you release your creation into the world, confident that you did the best that you could.

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    1. My biggest problem is that I can always do better, even after the ink has dried and the paper has blown away. The trick is knowing when to say enough already and let it go...

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